You're so beautiful and you always have been. The lessons you taught me will stay with me forever and a day....
I cannot express how much of my life you have influenced and inspired me. When I was wrong, young, scared, or too confused to go forward you were there, encouraging me and letting me know that things will be ok.
What I know now is you had to be mother, father, and best friend to a young man when there was no one there to stand for me.
I carry on in my heart forever what true love is, and it is beautiful it is you.
I love you momma and now that you are in heaven, I simply want you to know you were always my angel.
Beautiful is the word I can describe your 49 years on this earth. Wonderful is the 29 I had to be under your loving and gentle guidance. I will always remember and never forget.
Beautiful you are, beautiful is she.
With love,
- Maurice.
It’s been a minute since I have been on here, what can I say? Life has pulled me in a million different directions but the outcome is all is well.
For the longest I had nothing to say or really had no serious words, I was really focused on school, and upgrading my life. I can’t say all of that was easy, but what I need to do is say to those that I haven’t been in contact with, it wasn’t that you weren’t important, I had business to attend to, now that I am free, get at me!
Change:
I had to close a chapter in my life, it was very difficult to do, yet it was a necessary one. It’s funny how the saying rings true that the one’s you love the most seem to hurt you the worst, or something like it. Oh well, my mind is clear and as the days pass I am still handling business and moving right along, but to the one who tried to hurt me, I pray for you, and hope that one day you will become a better person, and understandably that you realize what karma is. I am still standing.
I’m glad that I finally got to make Katy officially my home. I love the area, love my house, I just can’t wait to start the transition to working in
Loving life and it's loving me back.......What's good out there people ?
It’s been awhile and there aren’t any excuses. I can say sometimes you have to sit your ass down and focus, and that’s just what a brotha did. It feels good, I’m telling you.
It’s seem like I looked at the calendar yesterday and it was like November or some shit, now it is March, and It’s like whoa where in the hell did 4 months go?
I want to say first off thank you to the one’s that have reached out and showed love and support for my moms, she is still fighting….Watching her and spending a 2 months off work and sitting with her totally has opened my eyes to a lot.
There’s so much to say, I will focus on making that happen in the coming days and weeks.
Question...... Where do we go from here ?
I see alot of great things coming our way. It is amazing, to see that there is power in the vote, and we have made ourselves be known, be heard. It's not his color it's not his speeches it's not his experience, it was OUR CHOICE ! feels good to know that someone is listening.
I don't speak on politics often except in a close circle, but this is amazing, and I cannot wait to see where we go from here........
This is not an ode to Usher or anything so don’t trip. I just happened to realize where I stand now in my life. I have expressed this probably before but I am just blessed to be where I am right now in my life. When the smoke clears, I have been able to take time out to do some self-reflection, and make some better choices when it comes to me.
I am thankful, for everything that has happened to me, even the part that has hurt or the points where I did not necessarily shine through, just gave me the understanding that I have room to grow.
Looking on the horizon in this hot ass desert, I have had some time- some needed time. The outcome: I can be better, I have gotten better, I am a better commodity spiritually, emotionally, personal and professional. I got heart too. The reason why I say this is because most of my years were spent being Superman. No I’m not high, nor am I bugging, I didn’t leap from tall buildings or fly around the world. My greatest act- was my sons and my family. It is not a picnic juggling life in the middle of the desert, loving, molding and growing with individuals’ from miles away.
Even when I am/ was at home, I was soo close, half man and half-amazing. This also proved to be my own kryptonite, my own inability to let go and let them thrive into the beautiful individuals that they are. So much of me was sacrificed; so much have I seemed to have aged going to war over soldiers that need no protection, that need only guidance and an occasional prayer that they go about life the right way, living by my example and enjoying life as they know it, because before you know it, it can pass you by.
Fortunately, it is not too late for me, or the ones that I love. I enjoy my family immensely, and I am happy that they understand. I am relieved that they accept, and I gladly hang my cape up and look forward to me, and all that is to be.
I am almost there, almost.
There has been a shake up going on in my life the past few weeks. I have no words, other than fuckery happens, lol it does.
What I am surprised at is my reaction to alot; I would normally be pissed off upset or wanting to be well just my sometimes ignorant self. But I am cool; still focused on doing my thing. One thing I learned a while ago is never lose focus of yourself.
Well there is one situation whereas I felt like I was misrepresented, but oh well fuck that too, no matter how you try to slice it; people that don't get you just don't. No further explanation needed.
School is kicking my ass. I got off to a rough start, but its all shaping up nicely. I should be on point in the following months on that one so I am truly happy about that.
Hurricane season is really off the chain! People around here are worried about their homes; hell I was worried about mine for a minute but I got every brick, window and column insured, yet still it's my place of refuge and regardless of insured or not, you don't want to see your place in shambles, something most have worked all their life for. I pray for those that are seriously affected by these storms and hurricanes they are experiencing.
Politics: I have expressed a few things about politics to a few people that I felt like I shoud "politic" with when it comes to them, but on a shallow note, Mrs. Palin is a hottie, in that naughty school teacher kind of way. I know in the office, that is the talk. Not that I am a Republican or what have you, but as a man the chick gets the attention of all guys.
Speaking not necessarily about girls but there is a phenomenom that I think is hilarious but can prove to be embarassing as hell for some. It's called Random Erection Syndrome, and unfortunately it affects every man that has the potential to get one. i.e. like a coworker did a few days ago, and had to walk across the room, or run rather for a crisis management ordeal. All I could hear from the Senior manager is "whoa down boy, bad johnson bad!" We laughed hysterically but all in all I imagined if it would have been me I would have felt awkward as hell. I can't even count the random ones i get, and for nothing! lol.......
When someone crosses your mind, it is for a reason, try to make contact and follow up on why it happened! You will never know what it will lead up to.
There are no guarantees but what I can say is I'm feeling you.
Maybe I'm trippin, maybe I'm a little lame for saying it like I am but I'm feeling you, no matter what the struggle is my goal is you, not a selfish man to want you, but when I think of me reaching my goals I see you at the front door when I get off work. What a better way to compliment me than you?
I know my hustle puts a strain on you, but when I see you fighting for me I can't help but to want to spoil you, yet my money is no good with you, still I want to spend anyway; time, attention, care and emotion; want to do everything to make you stay or not run or get tired and just let love......
We can be, maybe less or maybe more when I leave these streets, when I leave this struggle, when I get where I need to be. You don't judge me, just reassure me that you love me. My family drama, my baby mama all just have to respect you're for me.
I know sometimes you cry and wonder am I scheming or just be fronting, but I'm gone show you, cause I know you trust me, just know We can be.
If there were a song to share that touches the core of my emotion this is it here:
OLD LOVAS (Dwele 2005):
Old Lovas
Young at heart
Puppy lovers
Big old kids
Both of us
Co-exist
Hand in hand
We will be ripe...
Old lovas, I'm hoping that this is not a dream
'Cause that would mean
One of us would have to leave
Depending on who is the dreamer and who's the dreammee
(Regardless)
We both are here
(So let's find love)
'Till our Golden years
'Till the heaven's close
And our eyes open
I hope I aint dreaming
And I hope that we'll continue being...............
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